Too much work...Too little time!!!!

I know I can do anything I put my mind too but this amount of work in such little time is becoming very stressful. Everyday up until Dec. 14, I have an exam in my math course....plus his final. On top of that I still have to do my papers for Comp and right now I am in the middle of my paper for Lunn. I have to do everything around my house because it's just me and my father and he works from 12 to 12 everyday....weekends included. So that leaves me to do both of our laundry, the grocery shopping, the cooking and the cleaning. On top of that, I still have to find time out of the day to take my blood sugar, take my shots and other medication and go to my doctor's appointments. I can't wait until December 20th.....I get on that bus and take a wonderful drive down to Atlanta where I can finally relax with no stress from school or doctors. Well at least I know now what to expect for next semester. Always remember God puts the strongest people through the hardest times because he KNOWS they are strong enough to pull through. The people who have it easy are the people who are "WEAK" and he knows some situations they could not survive. I am a STRONG intelligent woman.....which means I have to stop writing and get back to this work. LOL!!! Later guy's and gal's.

Schindler's List

Schindler's List was extremely disturbing. It was, by far, the most depressing film I have seen. The melody throughout the movie helped create a mood of solitude and loneliness. The scenes were very graphic which assisted with understanding the reality and severity within these camps throughout this time period. Watching families be separated and murder after murder, most execution style, my heart felt the pain and sympathy for these individuals. Although these people were being stripped of their families, their property, their dignity and their whole existence, some still found it in their heart and power to smile and be grateful to still be alive. If I had to place myself in a similar predicament, I do not believe I could have mentally and emotionally survived such devastating sights. If I didn't have family at the time, I would have considered performing actions that would result in execution. I would not want to deal with the pain and agony of living in that type of environment. As for Oskar Schindler, I was touched by his concern and warm heart. While most Germans were showing discrimination and hatred toward Jews, Schindler was concerned with families staying together and the children. It was a little difficult to decipher whether Schindler was completely using the Jews to make money or really showing sympathy. The reading also helped me understand that he was saving Jews in retaliation against the Gestapo and SS for the way they mistreated him. There were scenes in the movie that displayed his warmheartedness, such as bringing the woman's mother and father together to work in his factory. Another scene was him watching the young girl in the red coat and later seeing the heartache on his facial expression when her deceased body is rolled by him. The scene when Amon Goeth is randomly shooting Jews vividly portrays how unfair and unpredictable a victim was. Schindler was collaborating with the Nazis openly while secretly undermining them. The end of the film was very interested because I was informed that the ammunition made in Schindler's factory was not used in the war. In fact, Schindler stated he would be concerned if Jews started manufacturing ammunition that did actually fire. I was impressed by the way Schindler found a way to make money and save Jews at the same time while acknowledging what he was doing was wrong.

HOLIDAYS ARE NOT THE SAME

My family officially fell apart in June of 2004. My mother just up and left my father and I and took my little brother with her. My older sister and two nieces moved to Atlanta GA in 2003 and my oldest brother moved to Alabama in 2004. I am a daddy's girl and always have been so I was fine and dandy with everything in the beginning. My other sister eventually moved to Atlanta in 2005 and my other brother moved to Atlanta in 2006. Knowing my medical situations and knowing that my "clock" is ticking faster than others it's becoming very depressing that my family is not together. Every year the passes the holidays seem to become more depressing to me. I am truly beginning to hate them with a passion. It is just my father and I.....we have NO ONE ELSE. NO OTHER FAMILY HERE!!!! I'm going down to Atlanta this Christmas to be with my little brother, two nieces, oldest sister and mom but half the other family is still not around. I'm going to try to make the best of it. I don't wish for any material things, I just wish I could have the past back!!!! For those who are blessed enough to spend the holidays with family....CHERISH EVERY MOMENT!!!!!! For Thanksgiving my father has to work so I am going to be completely alone.... maybe I'll take myself to the movies lol.

QW Nov 12,2009 (The Readings)

The White Rose : Long Live Freedom by Jacob Hornberger and The Test Case by Simon Wiesenthal were very inspirational because they expressed opinions with strength. In The White Rose, the college students stood up for what they believed despite the consequences they may have to face. For instance, Sophie Scholl said, "Somebody after all, had to make a start. What we wrote and said is also believed by others". Their actions showed displayed their bravery and determination to notify people of the reality they are too afraid to speak on. They seen a problem and decided to do what they had to in order to make a difference. It took a lot of courage to write the truth about Nazis and pass out these leaflets. Within The Test Case, the students expressed their beliefs stating, "This play is a swindle. Anne frank never lived.". It took boldness to make an accusation like that. I find it enlightening that no matter the situation people can stand up for what they believe in regardless of what others may think. I also found it uplifting that Simon Wiesenthal would go out of his way to prove the story of Anne Frank was authentic. It is so difficult for individuals to express their true beliefs, especially young adults. Seeing that people can stand up to situations that are critical to history and understanding the possible brutal consequences reassures me that in today's society I can have the strength to stand up to what I think is right.

The Start of a New Week!!!!

I thought this week was starting off in a GREAT way. I got all my homework and studying done over the weekend and still found time to watch some great movies. I was completely prepared for my midterm in math. I had money in my pocket and I planned on going to the mall after my midterm. My math class is from 6pm to 8pm. Now....I was dressed cute because it was kind of warm out today...the midterm was SO EASY...I know I passed so that put me in an even better mood. After class I decided to go over to Fairlane...eat some Chinese food and thought I was going to do some nice shopping. That is when my day came CRASHING DOWN!!! I locked my keys and my coat in the car in the parking lot of Fairlane by the food court soon as I got there. I had to wait hours until my dad could leave work to bring me my spare keys. As you know, the mall closes at 9 so I was sitting in the cold for a little while waiting. I'm glad I'm back home in the warm of my bed with no homework....I pray the Lord blesses me to see another day and I wonder what tomorrow will bring.

Dr. Bolkosky

I was sitting right in front of Dr. Bolkosky during his presentation and I have to say I seriously felt a vibe come from him. It's hard to explain. His tone of voice, his emotions mixed in with his words, everything about it was touching. Professor Kristi was sitting next to me, I don't know if she noticed it but subjects he touched on brought tears to my eye's. For me to cry for a stranger talking about strangers helps express the emotion tied in with our history. Dr. Bolkosky's presentation really hit home and I think most of it had to do with his feelings about it as well as how professional yet personal he made the situations. That was a speech that will be embedded in my memory for a VERY long time. I would like to take this time to say THANK YOU to Dr. Bolkosky and Professor K. If I knew it would be that AMAZING and emotional I would have turned my tape recorder on and caught the whole thing. His presentation has crossed my mind multiple times since Tuesday. When I think back on him talking about certain events, talking about certain interviews and remember his facial expressions and tone of voice, it still brings tears to my eye's.

Hard Work Pays Off

Now that most of the hard excessive work is out of the way, I feel pretty relaxed and proud of myself. I know I have the ability to do anything I set my mind to. I have proven that to myself time and time again. When you hand those papers in or take a test you've studied so hard for....it pays off. When you get that grade back and you are pleased with it, you can't help but smile. Then you feel a sense of relief. Although this past week or so has been hectic...I finally get to sit back some and look at my accomplishments. I know that to get what you want in life, you have to strive for it. Sitting back and complaining will not get things accomplished. I put my mind to it and got all my work done....YES!!!!!! In the process I aced a math exam and passed a psychology exam, finished a 6 page essay, my argumentative essay and a 4 page essay. Now it's time for a long bubble bath, a glass of White Zinfandel and a nice movie with my man. In the words of Colin Powell, "There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard-work, and learning from failure."